The Vow...

This isn't about the movie Rachel Mc Adams and Channing Tatum starred at, this is about my own real life movie, this is about the vow that I made almost 7 years ago...

"I promise to love you, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and cherish; from this day forward, until death do us part."

How can you keep holding on to that promise when you see that you're the only one fighting? You keep on asking the "what if" questions knowing that there is no certain answer. Time can only tell if there is really a happy ending. And what if there is really none???

It's been exactly one month since that night, that night when everything was all shattered. When my life made its 360 degree spin unexpectedly...Until now my heart still cannot fathom why we ended up this way... In my heart I believe that we were meant together, that we should be together...But you chose to walk away...

I want to keep believing...I still want to hold on...I am praying that one day you will come HOME to ME.

Lord, you know what my heart desires. I trust you with all my heart. I believe that behind the pain I am going through right now, is the HOPE that someday you will let me realize why this happened. You are my GOD and you know what's BEST for me, I may not realize that now, but I know for sure you will let me when the right time comes.